I’ve always been sort of an introspective loner, an introverted extrovert rather. Its not that I don’t know how to turn on the charm when I’m out, its getting out that’s the problem.

Since I’m more introverted than extroverted, I tend to isolate myself. Especially, during times when I feel depression creeping on me. Now please don’t be alarmed…I am not clinically depressed, but every now and again, I get weighed down by a sadness I can’t shake very easily. And there’s nothing wrong really. I mean, great job, great kid, great love…what could possibly be wrong?

I just feel like something is missing right now, and that something is my social life. The only problem is that when I get down, I withdraw, which obviously doesn’t bode well with wanting to make new friends and go out on the town…

And what am I to do? Go sit alone at a bar? Try to shoehorn my way into the lives of my co-workers? Sit at the coffee shop on Saturdays hoping someone will talk to me? What am I supposed to do to push myself out of this hole? I don’t want to be needy, but I know I need some adult interaction outside of work and Plurk.

Its not just that I want someone to hang out with, I need someone to talk to, confide in, give me a hug…I feel lonely. And I know lonely is internal…but I can’t help but think that if I had people, real life people, to call when I wanted to go out for drinks, or to catch a show in LA, that I’d be less lonely.

But then again, maybe I wouldn’t be…